From Darkness to Light: My Journey of Transformation and Healing through the MMM Modality

In 2016, I found myself at a crossroads, unsure of where my life was headed. I was no stranger to anxiety, as it had been a constant presence in my life and my family’s for as long as I could remember. We were an undiagnosed mix of mental health issues, including bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, narcissistic personality disorder, and borderline personality disorder. My search for relief led me to traditional talk therapy, hypnotherapy, and even various entheogens, but nothing seemed to work.

One fateful day, I decided to experiment with a combination of magic mushrooms, a small amount of ketamine, and cannabis flower. This led to an intensely mystical and transformative experience that forever changed the course of my life. The morning after, I felt alive, connected, and as if I had finally found my purpose. Little did I know, this newfound purpose would send me down a rabbit hole of megalomaniacal thinking and the belief that I was destined to save the world.

Driven by my newfound passion, I began writing endlessly, convinced I was a prophet with the solutions to everyone’s problems. As I became increasingly consumed by this delusion, those around me grew worried. It wasn’t until my world came crashing down and I experienced a narcissistic collapse that I realized I needed to take a different approach.

Turning to religious friends back in Texas, I was sent a Bible and began reading. As I delved into the scriptures, I began to unravel the complex web of my upbringing and the negative experiences that had shaped my life. This newfound clarity led me to integrate entheogens into my daily practices in a healthier, more balanced way.

It was through the discovery of mindfulness, meditation, and medicine that I was able to fully understand the depth of my trauma and heal the wounded inner child that desperately needed attention. This profound experience inspired the creation of the MMM modality of healing, which combines Meditation, Mindfulness, and Medicine, such as entheogens.

The three M’s are essential components of this healing modality for the following reasons:

1. Meditation: By practicing meditation, we learn to quiet our minds and cultivate a deep sense of inner peace. This allows us to gain perspective on our thoughts and emotions, ultimately leading to greater self-awareness and personal growth.
2. Mindfulness: Mindfulness teaches us to be present in the moment, fully experiencing life as it unfolds. This heightened awareness helps us recognize patterns and triggers in our lives, empowering us to make conscious choices for our well-being.
3. Medicine (entheogens): When used responsibly and with proper guidance, entheogens can facilitate powerful healing experiences that lead to lasting transformation. They help us access and address the underlying causes of our emotional pain, opening the door to true healing and self-discovery.

My passion for healing and self-discovery soon evolved into a love for infusing mushrooms into delicious confections and developing standardized microdosing techniques to help others heal without fear. I recognized that my upbringing in Texas, coupled with a lack of awareness and trauma-informed community support, had contributed to my difficult experiences with entheogens.

Today, my mission is to help others emerge from the shadows of depression and anxiety through the MMM modality, with proper guidance and support. I am now healthy, happy, and dedicated to helping others find their own path to healing and transformation using the power of Meditation, Mindfulness, and Medicine.

Join me on this journey as we explore the incredible potential of the MMM modality to heal, transform, and bring light to our lives. Together, we can break through the barriers of stigma and misinformation, empowering ourselves and others to live our best, most authentic lives.

As we embark on this journey, we will learn from one another and share our experiences, creating a supportive and nurturing community. Through the practice of the MMM modality, we will witness the incredible transformations that can occur when we embrace the power of Meditation, Mindfulness, and Medicine.

In addition to providing guidance and resources on the use of entheogens, our community will offer workshops, retreats, and support groups centered around the MMM modality. These gatherings will provide opportunities for individuals to connect with others on a similar path, fostering a sense of camaraderie and shared purpose.

With each step we take together, we will work towards dismantling the stigmas surrounding mental health and entheogen use, promoting a deeper understanding of the potential for healing and growth that lies within each of us. As we continue to learn and grow, we will become beacons of hope and inspiration for others who are seeking a way out of the darkness.

As we embrace the MMM modality, we will discover that true healing is not a destination but a journey, one that requires commitment, patience, and self-compassion. By integrating the practices of Meditation, Mindfulness, and Medicine into our lives, we will uncover the innate wisdom and strength that resides within each of us, unlocking our full potential and leading us towards a brighter, more fulfilling future.

Together, let us create a world where suffering and darkness are transformed into healing and light, and where each individual can find the path to wholeness and well-being. Join us on this transformative journey and experience the life-changing power of the MMM modality for yourself.